thank you providence
thank you clarity
thank you, thank you…
Alanis Morissette, “Thank U”
#Reverb10 is a blogging initiative that provides prompts every day for the month of December with the intent of reflecting on the past year and looking forward to what’s to come. While I can’t promise that I’ll be rising to the challenge of blogging every day, reflecting on the past for future growth is pretty much in this blog’s description, and so I’m glad to be a part of this movement.
Are you taking part? Let me know! I’d love to see your own reflections and words on how you’d like to manifest positive change in the coming year.
“Appreciate. What’s the one thing you have come to appreciate most in the past year? How do you express gratitude for it?”
I thought I would have the easy answer, that I could respond to this prompt with something simple like “Life” or “Beauty” or “Love.” But life is more complicated than that — emotions are more beautifully complicated. And love? Well…That exists in everything I’m grateful for.
My family, my friends, my pets, my job, my health, my house, this community, those passions, these dreams…
It’s like a cliched Thanksgiving speech — listing everything in my life that means something to me, every reason I have to be thankful. And yet, there’s so much more to those simple words, reasons and experiences behind the definition that makes that gratitude ever more profound.
Like, when my mom went to every doctor’s appointment with me while we were still trying to get a diagnosis, holding me as I cried in frustration, listening when I lashed out at her in uncontrollable, uncharacteristic, unwarranted anger.
Or when a friend invited me out for dinner and drinks to celebrate her 30th birthday, unknowingly helping me feel like I could be a part of the world again, pushing through that anxiety one step at a time until…
There’s Riley, keeping me present, keeping me calm amid insecurity and irrational fear; there’s the absolute patience of my dad as I make the greatest decision of my life thus far; there’s old dreams coming to fruition, there’s new dreams taking place.
Each of you who have been here with me along the way.
When I list these things that fill my heart, I realize the word “appreciate” scarcely covers it; I can barely begin to describe the depth of that emotion, to explain the experiences and connections that lie beneath what seems to be such simple words — family, friends, community — but are yet so much more.
Maybe there’s always so much more…
Maybe Life, Beauty, and Love does encapsulate all these things I’m grateful for. Maybe I really can sum up everything I appreciate so easily, in seemingly simple words…
So, ask me again: What’s the one thing you’ve come to appreciate most in the past year?
Life. Beauty. Love.
And how do you express gratitude for it?
By loving this beautiful life.