When fellow blogger Rebecca told me about her Monthly Goal Meet-Ups and invited me to join, I thought it was a great idea to help hold myself accountable and set reasonable terms in which I could accomplish what I admittedly hadn’t been doing. I readily promised to join in on the action and looked forward to writing up a blog post. But as the more time passed as I pursued opportunities, working towards a dream, the less time I had for the little goals. As such, September turned out to be a chaotic mess that made me feel like I was grasping for time as it flew by, just out of reach.
It’s the little moments that matter, but I’d become so caught up in trying to keep up with a full-time work schedule, freelance deadlines and projects, planned blog posts and celebrations, and volunteer events that those little moments began to feel overwhelming and impossible. I couldn’t wait for September to be over; I couldn’t wait to settle back into a comfortable routine.
I like routine.
I like when I can mix that routine up, but I like when I have that routine to begin with so that the possibility of mixing it up a bit doesn’t throw me completely through a loop. While I couldn’t wait for September to be over, I also wondered where it went.
I like steady. I like planning. I like knowing exactly what I have time for and in what amount of time I have to do it.
I like change when I’m ready for it, when I know it’s coming, when I feel like I have time for it. I like change when I feel like I can easily adapt.
But life doesn’t always work that way; you can’t plan everything and change happens whether we want it to or not. I’m hoping that this Monthly Goal Meet-Up will put me on the right track again and help me feel a bit more in control, a bit more accomplished.
A bit more settled.
Go for a 20 minute walk every day with Riley
September came and went, and I barely got to enjoy it. I love fall. I love the changing to this season: the warm afternoon sun turning over to a brisk evening breeze, colorful fallen leaves blanketing the streets. I love curling up with a blanket and a book or movie and a mug of hot chocolate with Riley sleeping next to me on cool autumn nights; I love soups and hot apple crisp and anticipation of the holidays. And because I love these things, I want to appreciate them. I want to pause and realign my priorities, take a step outside of this social medium and enjoy the outside world, enjoy the company of everything that I have, everything that I have to feel grateful for. Riley knows how to live in the moment and enjoy every day; I’m hoping that walking with him will help me slow down and take that moment I’ve been looking for.
Use my membership and go to the gym 3x/week
I am decidedly not an exercise person. Get me into a sport that’s fun and outdoors and doesn’t feel like exercise, and I’m a happy camper, but exercise for the sake of exercise, particularly in a gym, leaves me frustrated very easily, a bit bored, and often demotivated when there’s a lack of results. But that elliptical is perfect for releasing pent up emotion and the classes add a little bit of fun. Hopefully, by making it a monthly goal, I can take it step by step and build up to where I find myself enjoying it again.
Submit one short story for publication/contests
I’m insecure about my writing. I have an insatiable passion for it, but self-doubt often holds me back, hesitating to fully pursue a lifelong dream because I don’t often feel quite good enough. One thing I’ve learned, however, is you never know what you can do until you try, even at the risk of rejection. You only lose by holding back. And so, I’m going to make it a goal to submit one story to contests/for publication each month. It’s a small step to overcoming this hesitancy; it’s a small step to moving forward on a dream.
Write a new short story this month
Creative writing is my passion — it’s the stories, the imagined what-ifs, that move me. There are stories everywhere, I’ve always believed, but I’ve recently stopped telling them. Trying to balance the new 40 hour work week and freelancing almost made me resent the decisions I had made to pursue both, remarkable opportunities though they are, despite the fun I’m having with both. Scheduling a little bit of creative writing time to get back to that first love will hopefully help me feel a bit more settled and a bit less like I’ve abandoned something that’s always been important to me. Besides, I hear T.S. Eliot made it work…
Post 2x a week to Typescript, once a week for twenty(or)something
I took a temporary hiatus from Typescript last month because, like my break from creative writing, I’d been so full-up with everything else that blog posts became few and far, and the writing challenges became, for the most part, recycled and reused. I had to prioritize, and sadly, Typescript was at the bottom of that list. These blogs are such an important part of me, however, and so I hope to get back into a schedule where they can both thrive once again.
Funny how most of this month’s goals are centered around writing…I’ve been working hard to accomplish my long-term goals, but it’s taken me awhile to settle into a routine where I feel comfortable and capable, where I’m able to balance doing it all. Hopefully with these goals written out and holding myself publically accountable, I can take one more step towards that.
What’s on your to-do list this October?